There are a few things in life that I could not live with out (family, friends, and love). Additionally, there is no doubt in my mind that I could not live with out my iBook (G4) and the Internet. I am obsessed…crazy obsessed.
The first thing I do when I wake up in the morning is grab my laptop (which resides next to my bed) and check my Internet. When I go to bed I make sure to check my email. I could say that the reason that I check my email is because I am a teacher…but really I am just scared that I will get an email from a family/friend asking me to come home because of a tragedy.
I know that sounds slightly crazy, but I worry about them. Considering the – how shall we say it…interesting life I have had, I have grown accustom to phone calls, emails, and letters of bad news. I know if there was a problem my family would call my cell phone and because I know this I keep it on full volume all night. During the day I check my email and Facebook…um…obsessively. When I think about the time I have spent on online I wonder how I have managed to get my bachelors degree and stay close to my family. Wow.
I used to date a guy who was obsessed – this was before my obsession – and he would tell me that he was just going to quickly check his messages before we went to bed. He also had a laptop, so we would both sit in bed (me on my Mac) and him on his…PC (shudder). Now, when someone tells me that they are checking their “mail†I think email, but to him “mail†meant his two emails, Facebook, Myspace, Livejournal, and a slew of other websites. So, I would wait for almost an hour before he would finish.
To combat my boredom while waiting I became more involved in other online addictions. This past year someone introduced me to myspace, yikes. This website has taken over my life. As of right now I check my Myspace, Facebook, Livejournal, 2 emails, and other websites. I am not as bad as my ex, because I am in every way better than he. But I do wonder how I have managed to have friends and get a degree.